Ill be honest, I haven't written in awhile because of one reason: I feel unworthy of all my readers. I mean, nobody wants to hear about my struggles.
I got a phone call while at my grandparents one day and was reminded why I initially started writing years ago. I share my struggles because by sharing, I don't bottle things up and they don't feel so heavy. I want people to know I struggle every day, not to get pity, but so they know they aren't alone. I know how it feels to think you're the only one going through things like depression, pier pressure, break ups, being put down, pressure to be someone you're not...
All of these things people go through everyday and are treated like outcasts because of it. We have all of this pressure around us to be this perfect Christian; you can't make mistakes or do anything wrong in the eyes of your church, otherwise, you're cast out of the "holy" group.
Who in their right mind started the whole "hollier than thou" war? As if you can work your way to a higher level of holy or something.
We weren't created to compete against each other; we were created to work together in harmony, to praise our maker.
TOGETHER.
Sadly, there are many who profess to be Christians, yet lack the very root of Christ Himself. And that is love.
I strive every day to be more like Christ. But the thing is, I fail every day. As do we all.
But, my goal in life is not to BE Christ, but strive to be more like Him. The bible says "there is none good, not even one." So, the Christians who think they can achieve a higher level of "good" than the rest are at a sad state indeed. Do I wish I could be a "good" person? Absolutely. Do I just stop trying to be more like Christ because I know I can't ever achieve perfection? Absolutely not.
There's a quote, by whom I don't know, but I love it.
"I am perfectly imperfect."
My goal in life isn't to do good and shove it in the face of those who We might think are "lesser" than us; our goal should be to follow Jesus in everything we say, do and think. Nothing more, nothing less.
As another blogger said, the day I gave my life to Christ was the day I got a lifetime job. By now, I would have been fired by anyone else. Some days I don't show up for work or fail every task I'm given. But I'm given every lasting chances. They'll never run out. This is the love of God.
This is what I strive to be.
This is my journey.
